I wish I could just act like how the short film is. There is this one girl, that I wish I could ask her to start all over again with me. I'm sure we could work things out together somehow.

I just want to say what I want to say. I could tell you that I am sorry and it was a huge mistake that I have made, I am ready to change but I don't think that you want to hear any of that crap.

I am not going to try and get you to take me back as your other half. Why would you? I have been a really shitty boyfriend for the last few years, I don't deserve you.

I know as time passes, I get too influenced by the whole idea of money and I became so obsessed, eventually into someone that didn't take our relationship seriously, but girl, I do love you more than life itself. And what I want is for you to be happy. And I just hope that we can still be friends.

Damn..can you believe it? I still like her...wonder does she feel the same...

Things move on but not the feeling of mine

A simple sorry that both sides refused to take the initiative to say it. It ends up with the ending that no one can ever imagine. What a rainy day given to a perfect day.

It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't. But it's harder to pretend you don't love someone when you really do.

Let the picture says what is in my mind

Things have gone too far beyond the limit. Can you just believe me that I am sorry and I want to start all over? Just with you...it will always be you...

I went to find my friend today as he sounded like he has condition over there. Brought some beer to share. Lol, very funny, ended up watching HK drama alone upstair while he was talking on the phone. Well, when you are in a relationship, there are some unavoidable things such as money, commitment, and arguments. Sometimes, I laugh at them because I am not in a relationship, well I mean currently.Hey, I was in a serious relationship for twice. Don't judge a book by its cover. I may not look serious but I am always serious.

My superior friend asked me. If you were given the chance to go back to the past, will you still choose to have a relationship with your previous girlfriend. Well, I do. And I will make sure that I will do better than what I had. I will make sure that I would not let her slips through my side even an inch. But there is no such thing as travel back to the past. I wonder will she do the same...

I called her today, right after I checked my email where there are replies from the college. Well, not a good ending for our conversation. Perhaps, it is because of our previous conflicts, we're unable to speak like good friends. I'm tired of fighting with you every time I call, you know? Do you think that I want to care so much about you? I just can't..every single day, I will browse Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter to see how are you doing. Fuck. I'm fucking sorry okay? I'm trying to help you out with things that you need help on. But you just wouldn't listen to me. I keep blaming myself for not able to be there for you while you need me the most. Now, things just keep on getting ugly.

I ain't gonna cry,
And I won't beg you to stay,
If you're determined to leave girl,
I will not stand in your way,
But inevitably you'll be back again,
Cause you know in your heart babe,
Our love will never end.

I hope that someday, you will know who I really am to you.

If you already knew who is the one that you would think of when you have problems or some shit things going on around you, why you still let him go away from your life? He can't just stay and wait for you forever. Someday, he might go away and start his new life. Believe it or not, he still have not given up on you. In his eyes, you are perfection; blinded by your smile.

Never thought of one day, I would be losing you.

Ngo xiong soon yong sam gam tang doi ta, ta zong yau yat yatt wooi fan lei ngo sam bin. Joi hou dek ban fat.

我以为我们会一起长大。然后等到我准备时，就娶你。生下几个我们的小孩，把他们养大成为好像我们两个那么风趣。一起老，以致的把你抱在我的身边。

一个她读不明白的邮件

我不懂得要怎么的去告诉你。我知道事情已经不再像以前那样，你不要再去爱我，也不敢再去爱我 - 一个伤了你心的人。

我真的很想告诉你，对不起，我把一个好好的感情弄到先在这样。我无法把时间流转，但是如果可以，我会不顾一切的把时间带回那天。好好的去珍惜你。不回和你提出分手这两个字。

看到你先在的生活，我有一点担心。但是我什么都做不到。只是可以在你需要我的时候而出现。也许我该让你去看看这个世界吧。可能你会找到你要的快乐。我会时时刻刻的守护着你，在你需要我的时候而出现。

我朋友常说，你可以做的是就是耐心等待。我好不想等，但是处了这个以外，我还能做到些什么呢？我不知道外面有多少个好男人，但是我知道，我会是一个好男友。不再让你难过，流眼泪。

我希望有一天，你可以再次对我有信心。

My final examination is just around the corner. It has been several months since we broke up. I remember I asked for it before my final examination last semester. Well, I still miss her you know? I wish that we have never broken up that day. I couldn't forget about her even for a day. How silly am I?

I may not know how to react if I see her somewhere all of a sudden. She might be happier with me out of the picture. That is all I ever wanted, to give her true happiness even it costs me my absence.

Bad sleeping experience yesterday. I forgot that my bed is full of dust because no one was in the room for a week plus. I just slept on it and fell asleep. Then, the nightmare has begun. My nose got itchy, skin feels itchy and here itchy there itchy. Big mistake. And then, during morning, I started receiving calls while I'm still rolling on the bed from friends with unknown numbers. They just called and "Hey, Poh Sing!" and I was like "o.0! huh, who are you?"

Well, presentation was good. Nothing special to mention on. Oh yeah, I was so relieved after the HOD told me that my request on the code sharing is approved. I hope that I would not get any trouble from the subject registration anymore due to the new syllabus.

I am damn boring in the room alone now. That is why I always apply for sharing room. I will rot if I never speak to anyone. Especially when I am single..worse...LMAO..Oh yeah, saw her photos today with the food on the table. I was like OMG, even I can't finish up that much food that she ordered. MEATBALL, I miss meatball. I miss you.

It has been a very hectic semester for me. Seriously, when you are doing everything that should be done in 14 weeks time in just 11 weeks, the schedule is really damn pack but I did enjoy my raya break damn much. Came back all the way to university for presentations and submission of assignments.

Sounds gay but it is kind of boring and lonely when she is not around anymore to give me moral support. 'If' is all I can ever imagine now. If she's still my girlfriend, I would have given her a call now to tell her how tired am I and how much I wish to meet her soon after all my things for this semester are done. I never expect things would turned out that bad between us.

Probably, I am going to sleep soon. Waking up at 11 am tomorrow I guess. Shit, there is no one for me to wish goodnight and good morning now. Feels so miserable especially I am all alone in the apartment - in the room. Boring.

想回到过去，
试着抱你在怀里，
 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气，
想看你看的世界，
想在你梦的画面，
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜，
想回到过去，
试着让故事继续，
至少不再让你离我而去，
分散时间的注意，
这次会抱得更紧，
这样挽留不知还来不来得及，
想回到过去。

Come back home. I will care,protect and love you. I will be the one that you can rely and trust on. I'm different now.