My final examination is just around the corner. It has been several months since we broke up. I remember I asked for it before my final examination last semester. Well, I still miss her you know? I wish that we have never broken up that day. I couldn't forget about her even for a day. How silly am I?

I may not know how to react if I see her somewhere all of a sudden. She might be happier with me out of the picture. That is all I ever wanted, to give her true happiness even it costs me my absence.

Bad sleeping experience yesterday. I forgot that my bed is full of dust because no one was in the room for a week plus. I just slept on it and fell asleep. Then, the nightmare has begun. My nose got itchy, skin feels itchy and here itchy there itchy. Big mistake. And then, during morning, I started receiving calls while I'm still rolling on the bed from friends with unknown numbers. They just called and "Hey, Poh Sing!" and I was like "o.0! huh, who are you?"

Well, presentation was good. Nothing special to mention on. Oh yeah, I was so relieved after the HOD told me that my request on the code sharing is approved. I hope that I would not get any trouble from the subject registration anymore due to the new syllabus.

I am damn boring in the room alone now. That is why I always apply for sharing room. I will rot if I never speak to anyone. Especially when I am single..worse...LMAO..Oh yeah, saw her photos today with the food on the table. I was like OMG, even I can't finish up that much food that she ordered. MEATBALL, I miss meatball. I miss you.

It has been a very hectic semester for me. Seriously, when you are doing everything that should be done in 14 weeks time in just 11 weeks, the schedule is really damn pack but I did enjoy my raya break damn much. Came back all the way to university for presentations and submission of assignments.

Sounds gay but it is kind of boring and lonely when she is not around anymore to give me moral support. 'If' is all I can ever imagine now. If she's still my girlfriend, I would have given her a call now to tell her how tired am I and how much I wish to meet her soon after all my things for this semester are done. I never expect things would turned out that bad between us.

Probably, I am going to sleep soon. Waking up at 11 am tomorrow I guess. Shit, there is no one for me to wish goodnight and good morning now. Feels so miserable especially I am all alone in the apartment - in the room. Boring.

想回到过去，
试着抱你在怀里，
 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气，
想看你看的世界，
想在你梦的画面，
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜，
想回到过去，
试着让故事继续，
至少不再让你离我而去，
分散时间的注意，
这次会抱得更紧，
这样挽留不知还来不来得及，
想回到过去。

Come back home. I will care,protect and love you. I will be the one that you can rely and trust on. I'm different now.

How Are You?

墙上静止的钟是为谁 停留
Who did the clock stopped its time for?
是不是和我一样赖着不走
Just like me, it is reluctant to leave
你说故事已经结束 很久
You said the story has already ended, some time ago
我忘了 向前走
(But) I’ve forgotten to move forward
我努力假装现在过得 很好
I try hard to look as if I’m doing good right now
现在的你看来已不需要我
It seemed like you didn’t need me
也许在不同的时空
Perhaps in another space of time
还牵着 你的手
I’m still holding your hands
想知道你真的过得好吗
I would like to know how are you
没有我也许是种解脱
You probably feel relieved without me
将思念穿梭在宇宙数千光年
(I’m) putting my thoughts of you in the shuttle thousands of lightyears
悄悄到 你身边
Then (travelling) to your side, quietly
现在我试着习惯一个人过
I’m getting used to being alone
也许你已经开始新的 生活
Perhaps you have started with a new life
陪着我的叫做寂寞
Loneliness has been accompanying me
陪你的 是谁呢
Who’s with you now?