我以为我们会一起长大。然后等到我准备时，就娶你。生下几个我们的小孩，把他们养大成为好像我们两个那么风趣。一起老，以致的把你抱在我的身边。

一个她读不明白的邮件

我不懂得要怎么的去告诉你。我知道事情已经不再像以前那样，你不要再去爱我，也不敢再去爱我 - 一个伤了你心的人。

我真的很想告诉你，对不起，我把一个好好的感情弄到先在这样。我无法把时间流转，但是如果可以，我会不顾一切的把时间带回那天。好好的去珍惜你。不回和你提出分手这两个字。

看到你先在的生活，我有一点担心。但是我什么都做不到。只是可以在你需要我的时候而出现。也许我该让你去看看这个世界吧。可能你会找到你要的快乐。我会时时刻刻的守护着你，在你需要我的时候而出现。

我朋友常说，你可以做的是就是耐心等待。我好不想等，但是处了这个以外，我还能做到些什么呢？我不知道外面有多少个好男人，但是我知道，我会是一个好男友。不再让你难过，流眼泪。

我希望有一天，你可以再次对我有信心。

My final examination is just around the corner. It has been several months since we broke up. I remember I asked for it before my final examination last semester. Well, I still miss her you know? I wish that we have never broken up that day. I couldn't forget about her even for a day. How silly am I?

I may not know how to react if I see her somewhere all of a sudden. She might be happier with me out of the picture. That is all I ever wanted, to give her true happiness even it costs me my absence.

Bad sleeping experience yesterday. I forgot that my bed is full of dust because no one was in the room for a week plus. I just slept on it and fell asleep. Then, the nightmare has begun. My nose got itchy, skin feels itchy and here itchy there itchy. Big mistake. And then, during morning, I started receiving calls while I'm still rolling on the bed from friends with unknown numbers. They just called and "Hey, Poh Sing!" and I was like "o.0! huh, who are you?"

Well, presentation was good. Nothing special to mention on. Oh yeah, I was so relieved after the HOD told me that my request on the code sharing is approved. I hope that I would not get any trouble from the subject registration anymore due to the new syllabus.

I am damn boring in the room alone now. That is why I always apply for sharing room. I will rot if I never speak to anyone. Especially when I am single..worse...LMAO..Oh yeah, saw her photos today with the food on the table. I was like OMG, even I can't finish up that much food that she ordered. MEATBALL, I miss meatball. I miss you.

It has been a very hectic semester for me. Seriously, when you are doing everything that should be done in 14 weeks time in just 11 weeks, the schedule is really damn pack but I did enjoy my raya break damn much. Came back all the way to university for presentations and submission of assignments.

Sounds gay but it is kind of boring and lonely when she is not around anymore to give me moral support. 'If' is all I can ever imagine now. If she's still my girlfriend, I would have given her a call now to tell her how tired am I and how much I wish to meet her soon after all my things for this semester are done. I never expect things would turned out that bad between us.

Probably, I am going to sleep soon. Waking up at 11 am tomorrow I guess. Shit, there is no one for me to wish goodnight and good morning now. Feels so miserable especially I am all alone in the apartment - in the room. Boring.

想回到过去，
试着抱你在怀里，
 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气，
想看你看的世界，
想在你梦的画面，
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜，
想回到过去，
试着让故事继续，
至少不再让你离我而去，
分散时间的注意，
这次会抱得更紧，
这样挽留不知还来不来得及，
想回到过去。

Come back home. I will care,protect and love you. I will be the one that you can rely and trust on. I'm different now.

How Are You?

墙上静止的钟是为谁 停留
Who did the clock stopped its time for?
是不是和我一样赖着不走
Just like me, it is reluctant to leave
你说故事已经结束 很久
You said the story has already ended, some time ago
我忘了 向前走
(But) I’ve forgotten to move forward
我努力假装现在过得 很好
I try hard to look as if I’m doing good right now
现在的你看来已不需要我
It seemed like you didn’t need me
也许在不同的时空
Perhaps in another space of time
还牵着 你的手
I’m still holding your hands
想知道你真的过得好吗
I would like to know how are you
没有我也许是种解脱
You probably feel relieved without me
将思念穿梭在宇宙数千光年
(I’m) putting my thoughts of you in the shuttle thousands of lightyears
悄悄到 你身边
Then (travelling) to your side, quietly
现在我试着习惯一个人过
I’m getting used to being alone
也许你已经开始新的 生活
Perhaps you have started with a new life
陪着我的叫做寂寞
Loneliness has been accompanying me
陪你的 是谁呢
Who’s with you now?

I hate that I love you

Qing Tian

Chai Hong cover

Er,just playing for fun...fast and furious..

Santa Cruz?No,it is StarSun(WTH is this brand?)

So this is my brand new guitar that cost me RM4xx.xx.Somehow,I like the guitar for few aspects such as it is a cut-away guitar where can play until fret-20 with no disturbance, build-in guitar tuner for easy tuning of guitar strings,it is an EQ acoustic guitar where it can plug into an amplifier if you want,it has 4 tuning for plug-in namely bass,middle,treble,presence with volume control.
The only thing I don't like about this guitar is the wood quality,seriously,I'm very disappointed with it.The fret part is not smooth causing problems for sliding and pushing up.It may looks very nice from outside but inside the body,all the glues is here and there.You can see how well is hand-made guitar.T_T especially from China.

I was told that guitars from China can be named anything.Suppose mine is Santa Cruz but they named it StarSun and they are telling me it is the same thing due to same manufacturer. Wth is that suppose to mean?Nevermind,just accept the fact then.Why don't they name the guitars from China Yamaha?Everyone will be rushing to buy it,right?-.-

开不了口= 没勇气的失败

Will you believe that I bought this "BIG" size Koko Krunt just for the SpongeBob SquarePants? Ah,lucky I bought it because it became my lunch few days ago...=.= pity me
But the worse thing is they don't have this yellow span for Koko Krunch! They have it in Honey Star(If the name is not wrong -.-) Yee, I prefer Koko Krunch...
The cashier laughed at me when I asked them " Ini boleh tukar kepada Spongebob ah?" <---- While holding the Koko Krunch and pointing at the pink guy...Xp

时间

上天给每一个人的时间都是一样，是看我们怎么的去珍惜每一分每一秒的时间。时间可惜的是它不能从来，可喜的是它也不许从来。珍惜每一分每一秒，也是代表珍珍惜每一个在你生命中的人而珍惜你还没遇到的人。
你所付出的不一定会马上得到结果。耐心等待，总有一天，你要等待的一定会出现。

God is giving equal amount of time to every single life in this world, it is all depends on how we appreciate every single second of time. Unfortunately, time cannot be set back but pleasant, time need no to be set back. Appreciate every single second can be represent by appreciate every single person that you had met in your life and as well as the people that you not yet meet too.

What you sacrifice now doesn't mean that it will bring you success on the spot. Wait patiently, believe that what you are waiting for will appear on a special day in the future.

-This Translation Is For That Banana Joanne- XD

My 2009 Mooncake Festival EXP

Erm, today is such a great bad day I ever had with my dizziness. Celebrating Mooncake festival with lying on the bed because my stomach was not feeling well the whole afternoon. Eat = vomit
Lucky enough one of my friend is still around in this college (my roommate). Thanks for his help and suggestion on helping me to get well. I never eat anything since morning till evening around 5 to 6 p.m

What I ate today was fish chip, a cup of Milo, one can of 100plus, Dutch Lady milk, chewing gum, drinking water and cookies. What a weirdo right? No rice or noodle for the whole day!!And now is about 4 o’clock in the morning while my friend and I still haven’t make up our mind to enjoy our sleep yet. What we did the whole night is playing RESIDENT EVIL 5. Sounds childish yeah? Don’t blame us, we have no other better entertainment. Nevermind, we will go for a movie tomorrow. Opps, is today afternoon time.

During last time when I was still so well protected at my hometown under the sight of my lovely parents, I never get satisfies but now, when I fall a sick, who will be here that is going to care about me? I guess I have to say – NO ONE! Sounds damn pity right? It’s ok, just have to get used to it. Clinic is near and a private hospital is just beside of my lovely college. No problem, no problem…Shit, I hate loneliness.

-May God Always Guide Me-

Weekend Weekend, Another Weekend

It’s a very boring weekend for me again at my college’s hostel but it’s fine for me. Nothing come for free right? I trust that I will enjoy my future later while suffer now.

Wow, quite sleepy today huh, was doing what we named it “Men’s Talk” yesterday and only slept for few hours before going to my class today morning and that was quite an interesting thing I learnt inside the class. Always read the facts for mathematics! If they do not need you to read and know the words, why they wrote so many words inside a mathematic book? I was screwed up in the class.

It’s kind of embarrassing. =.=” I’m sorry teacher, I will do better next time.

End Of My Raya Holiday

Well,today is the last day for my Raya break and I will be returning to my college again.Well,to be honest,I don't want to go back there but nothing can be change.That's really sound very kiddo for sad to leave home and go back to college.
It's so much fun at my own hometown.Let's compare it on few fields -

Home = red
College = blue
Food - (Restaurant,Fast Restaurant,Mamak,Roadside Food Stall) (Canteen,Cova,Mamak)

Going Somewhere - (Drive,Ride,Cycle,Walk) (One Choice = walk)

Free Time - (Online & Offline gaming,surf net,yamcha,longkai,BOOKLESS) (Offline gaming,study)

This thing on top is just some examples by comparing my life at hometown with my life at college.
During every time when I know that I'm gonna go back to my hometown,I'll be very relax and can't wait to get into the bus but whenever I know that I'm going back to college,I'll be nervous for tomorrow's journey.It will takes me 5 hours to go back to college or go back to hometown.It's really freaking me out for returning to college buy yet I Have To! T____T